Wednesday, May 10, 2006
flawed...
At times I feel down and at times I feel up.
Sometimes, I wonder how friendship can grow when two people only talk when they meet each other. But I'm glad my friendship is growing.
I've realised that in many ways, I'm still rather immature. I guess that's what I deserve for being pampered too much. I realise I'm still rather shy. Rather introverted when it comes to the issue of girls. I realised that I'm too conservative in this area. I dunno anymore. I know I have this weakness. Does this mean that I'll be single forever? -.-"
Everytime I let a girl know my feelings, I tend to recoil back. Hiding back in my shelter when the answer that comes is rather unfavourable. I tend to be a rather pessimistic person after that. I don't know why. I just get discouraged and disheartened halfway. Then, somehow I know I should be calling the girl that I like to get to know her more, but one side of me restrains me. Not only calling, even msn messaging. Even though when we meet up and talk we're fine. But I just feel restrained. Sometimes, I guess it's cos I think too much? Listening to my female friends experiences with guys whom they don't like who call them so often to a point they just get sick of them? Or just trying to avoid the guys that they don't like? I don't know. Pessimism to the maximum.
I have to blame my sisters on this partly. When I was young it was already instilled to me by them to NEVER tell a girl my emotions. Which, now when I come to think of it, is bulls**t. I never regret letting girls know how I feel about them..and sometimes I don't have to say it but my actions betray me. Sigh.
I guess I need to change myself. I need to rectify that immature me. I want to become a more mature person. I guess, there's no point being scared about talking bout such awkward issues such as emotions with the person whom you have emotions for. I believe that if I never say it, I might just regret it. It takes a real mature man to ask the question and confront the girl about his feelings and be ready to face rejection. I don't even know if I have been rejected or not. But things are going fine.
And sometimes I wish girls were more direct. Like say no I don't like you or something. I guess the short pain is better than the pain in the long run. That's what I think. It's better than the guy hanging on only to find nothing. Talking from experience.=.=
Sigh. I need to do something bout myself. I also know that I can't read body language at all. And I don't get hints. Haih. Blur me. -.- But yeah, I just need to do something bout myself la. I know God will provide me with someone. It's just a matter of waiting on Him for the right person to come along....
Emotions are tricky stuff..-.- ¶ 1:08 AM
Sometimes, I wonder how friendship can grow when two people only talk when they meet each other. But I'm glad my friendship is growing.
I've realised that in many ways, I'm still rather immature. I guess that's what I deserve for being pampered too much. I realise I'm still rather shy. Rather introverted when it comes to the issue of girls. I realised that I'm too conservative in this area. I dunno anymore. I know I have this weakness. Does this mean that I'll be single forever? -.-"
Everytime I let a girl know my feelings, I tend to recoil back. Hiding back in my shelter when the answer that comes is rather unfavourable. I tend to be a rather pessimistic person after that. I don't know why. I just get discouraged and disheartened halfway. Then, somehow I know I should be calling the girl that I like to get to know her more, but one side of me restrains me. Not only calling, even msn messaging. Even though when we meet up and talk we're fine. But I just feel restrained. Sometimes, I guess it's cos I think too much? Listening to my female friends experiences with guys whom they don't like who call them so often to a point they just get sick of them? Or just trying to avoid the guys that they don't like? I don't know. Pessimism to the maximum.
I have to blame my sisters on this partly. When I was young it was already instilled to me by them to NEVER tell a girl my emotions. Which, now when I come to think of it, is bulls**t. I never regret letting girls know how I feel about them..and sometimes I don't have to say it but my actions betray me. Sigh.
I guess I need to change myself. I need to rectify that immature me. I want to become a more mature person. I guess, there's no point being scared about talking bout such awkward issues such as emotions with the person whom you have emotions for. I believe that if I never say it, I might just regret it. It takes a real mature man to ask the question and confront the girl about his feelings and be ready to face rejection. I don't even know if I have been rejected or not. But things are going fine.
And sometimes I wish girls were more direct. Like say no I don't like you or something. I guess the short pain is better than the pain in the long run. That's what I think. It's better than the guy hanging on only to find nothing. Talking from experience.=.=
Sigh. I need to do something bout myself. I also know that I can't read body language at all. And I don't get hints. Haih. Blur me. -.- But yeah, I just need to do something bout myself la. I know God will provide me with someone. It's just a matter of waiting on Him for the right person to come along....
Emotions are tricky stuff..-.- ¶ 1:08 AM
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u noe.. wat u said is true.. i SHOULD. totally should tell the girl how u feel and always b prepared for rejection..
for girls to make it easier on u.. specify that u WANT a specific answer. assure them that u'd b okay wif a no jus as u'd b ok wif a yes. let them know that fact when u disclose how u feel abt them. that should clear any doubts frm their minds as to "how to let u down gently". oh.. also b very frank wif them.. like if u know that u guys cannot stay friends if she rejects.. tell her. if u think that either way, her answer wouldnt change how u act arnd her, then tell her that as well. =)
gluck on all that. *huggleS~* im here if u need to talk.
-diane
for girls to make it easier on u.. specify that u WANT a specific answer. assure them that u'd b okay wif a no jus as u'd b ok wif a yes. let them know that fact when u disclose how u feel abt them. that should clear any doubts frm their minds as to "how to let u down gently". oh.. also b very frank wif them.. like if u know that u guys cannot stay friends if she rejects.. tell her. if u think that either way, her answer wouldnt change how u act arnd her, then tell her that as well. =)
gluck on all that. *huggleS~* im here if u need to talk.
-diane
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: 8:24 PM
hehehe..thanks for the tips muiz!=P can't thank you more for that..cos on this issue, I'd appreciate girls comments more.=P
=) i appreciate it!
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