Tuesday, July 11, 2006
BAH
Been really busy lately. My blog is practically dead.
I have been running around..but yet nothing much to blog about.
I've gained weight..quite a bit..thanks to the Malaysian food..:P haha..life has been okay so far. Work is as usual. I don't really like work life just yet. Hrms.-_-" The fact that I always feel sleepy in my office doesn't help either.
I realised that, this current summer, might possibly be one of the last times I will be back here for awhile. I'm not sure at the moment if I'm going to be back next year. I'm already missing certain friends whom are going to be leaving overseas..and from then on, I will not see them till I dunno how many years from now.
I've been doing a lot of thinking on what I want to accomplish in life. And it's just amazing. I feel like I'm still a kid but growing up already. Sigh. Already started to dream about buying my own house and car, getting professional recognition in my field and all that. Hrms...that's good but not good at the same time.
I'm also planning to stay off girls for this coming year ( I know I always say it..but I've been thinking..). I realised since I came back here, that when I'm with my close female friends, I feel very at home, very myself...I am not expected to act in a particular way. Which is good. When I'm there with her, I feel like I'm being restricted. I don't feel like I'm 100% myself. And I don't really like that feeling. Her by the way, is in no way related with me..just a friend as we call it.
I feel that I've been hurt enough for now. I just want to focus on my degree and on God before ever going into any relationship. I've decided I'm not ready and I don't want to be pushed around. Tough life...
I don't know what life brings after graduation..am I going to be working? Or continuing a post graduate? Will I be staying in UK or coming back to Malaysia? I don't know anything anymore. My life is completely in God's control. All I'm going to do when I go back to UK is enjoy myself and study hard. I'm not gonna let anyone restrict me or make me be not 100% myself. Screw it.
I've had enough of this... ¶ 8:12 PM
I have been running around..but yet nothing much to blog about.
I've gained weight..quite a bit..thanks to the Malaysian food..:P haha..life has been okay so far. Work is as usual. I don't really like work life just yet. Hrms.-_-" The fact that I always feel sleepy in my office doesn't help either.
I realised that, this current summer, might possibly be one of the last times I will be back here for awhile. I'm not sure at the moment if I'm going to be back next year. I'm already missing certain friends whom are going to be leaving overseas..and from then on, I will not see them till I dunno how many years from now.
I've been doing a lot of thinking on what I want to accomplish in life. And it's just amazing. I feel like I'm still a kid but growing up already. Sigh. Already started to dream about buying my own house and car, getting professional recognition in my field and all that. Hrms...that's good but not good at the same time.
I'm also planning to stay off girls for this coming year ( I know I always say it..but I've been thinking..). I realised since I came back here, that when I'm with my close female friends, I feel very at home, very myself...I am not expected to act in a particular way. Which is good. When I'm there with her, I feel like I'm being restricted. I don't feel like I'm 100% myself. And I don't really like that feeling. Her by the way, is in no way related with me..just a friend as we call it.
I feel that I've been hurt enough for now. I just want to focus on my degree and on God before ever going into any relationship. I've decided I'm not ready and I don't want to be pushed around. Tough life...
I don't know what life brings after graduation..am I going to be working? Or continuing a post graduate? Will I be staying in UK or coming back to Malaysia? I don't know anything anymore. My life is completely in God's control. All I'm going to do when I go back to UK is enjoy myself and study hard. I'm not gonna let anyone restrict me or make me be not 100% myself. Screw it.
I've had enough of this... ¶ 8:12 PM
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Kawan! when r u graduating? hehez..all the msian food. Better enjoy to the max man!!! Aihs, i'm in the same boat as you too..not sure what to do after graduation. i don't mind going home for good to work and study later but i would feel bad for leaving my bf here..sighz...all in God's hands. Amen? :)
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