warning : emo post ahead. undergoing cycles of emotional stress and strains.. I look at myself
All I see is a lonely boy
A boy who hasn't grown at all
And just when I thought I did

I still fall for the same thing I fell
I still feel the same way about people
As I did before I left
I still have my issues
Which are currently causing my self destruction

I still see myself in a small frame
I guess I had preferred it over there in the UK
Where life had been easier
I didn't have to worry or feel this way

Whatever feelings I have now for anybody
Is just meant to die
To be cut short
To be incinerated before they can even bloom
To be kept to myself
To be left unknown to them
Till maybe the time is right

This world is so screwed up
I just can't take it anymore
Why can't it be as simple as it should be?
I've faced so much hurt
It's just damn unbearable at times
That sometimes I believe
It's pointless to love anyone
But yet I keep on falling back to the same place I escape from

I guess it was never meant to be
Sometimes I wish I was some closet person
That no one can come near
And just let me live in my own world
Without anyone to hurt me
To inflict emotional pain
To allow me to have that self realization that things will not work out

I just put on a smile as big as I can
To try and forget of the pain I've faced
But behind all the smiles and laughter
Lies the real person behind the bear persona
The lonely and insecure boy who hasn't grown up one bit

Pfft...I am starting to sound pathetic.
But this is who I really I am
This is my jaded self
Jaded from simplicity to complexity
And I hate it so
Because all I want to be
Is that cheery old me
Where I didn't give a damn about emotions

Just leave me be..  ¶ 9:51 PM