Perseverance.

They always say perseverance always provides results.

I'm still questioning that in certain aspects.

Anyhow, I need to learn patience and perseverance myself. I definitely can't expect to see results immediately without putting much effort into it.

The dilemma then comes if I should put a lot of effort, a little effort or no effort at all? Then again it all depends on the outcomes I want to see. Right?

I'm talking rubbish, but one thing for sure is I just need to be patient and continue doing what I do. The time will come when change will inevitably happen whether for better or worse I don't know.

Change.

I need change. I want change. I desire change.

To break free from the norms of life, to break free from the old self I have been.

To become a better person. To just be and not to be.

I long to be different, I seek change. I seek to be closer, to be stronger, to be more than who I am right now.

I need to be different, I need to be a better person.

Sigh.

But still I can never understand why the heart works the way it does..? Playing emotions on you and just toying with you to only leave you empty and hurt.

I don't want to be jaded anymore. I want to renew my mind.

Help me, God. Amen.  ¶ 9:34 PM