Sunday, June 29, 2008
Sometimes..
Just sometimes..I wish I had a punching bag.
Something to punch at when I'm just at the tip of the iceberg.
No acts of rage of course. But it's a good anger outlet.
That aside,
I'm just too lazy to blog anymore at times.
Sometimes life is just full of disappointments.
And sometimes it's just full of surprises.
And happy moments.
And what nots.
I'm falling short.
Falling short on how life should be.
Feeling that things are overated.
Losing sight of what's really important and what's not.
Feels like I'm being half assed/ half expectant of things.
Like I'm becoming cynical.
Cynical to a point that I'm even scared that I'm that cynical.
What happen to the innocent view of things?
The naiveness of it all.
When things didn't seem so freaking jaded...
And life was just simple and blissful, full of happy thoughts and ignorance I guess.
I'm sick of all of this.
Won't it just stop?
Stop playing around with my emotions
With my life
With my thoughts
My mind
I just want to be optimistic
Want to push for greater heights
Want to believe in a greater cause to life
To hold on to a stronger believe in God.
And to believe that only He can turn such things around for me.
To be the best I can be.
Is that too hard to ask of? ¶ 1:21 AM
Just sometimes..I wish I had a punching bag.
Something to punch at when I'm just at the tip of the iceberg.
No acts of rage of course. But it's a good anger outlet.
That aside,
I'm just too lazy to blog anymore at times.
Sometimes life is just full of disappointments.
And sometimes it's just full of surprises.
And happy moments.
And what nots.
I'm falling short.
Falling short on how life should be.
Feeling that things are overated.
Losing sight of what's really important and what's not.
Feels like I'm being half assed/ half expectant of things.
Like I'm becoming cynical.
Cynical to a point that I'm even scared that I'm that cynical.
What happen to the innocent view of things?
The naiveness of it all.
When things didn't seem so freaking jaded...
And life was just simple and blissful, full of happy thoughts and ignorance I guess.
I'm sick of all of this.
Won't it just stop?
Stop playing around with my emotions
With my life
With my thoughts
My mind
I just want to be optimistic
Want to push for greater heights
Want to believe in a greater cause to life
To hold on to a stronger believe in God.
And to believe that only He can turn such things around for me.
To be the best I can be.
Is that too hard to ask of? ¶ 1:21 AM
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yo justin.. if I hadn't seen your blog, I wouldn't have known that life seemed so terrible, from the way you're writing it. I'm being amazed at so many ppl's blogs.. I see them super happy and full of encouragement and courage.. but when I see their blogs, wow, its alot harder for them than mine..
although, do remember that He's there.. my own encouragement to you, "Everything has its time. Its plan. It's person to use to talk or show you. Its way of doing things.." The 'it' refers to the Spirit.. and His Time and Plan at the same time..
Your emo blogs show me life isn't smooth sailing even for those who can smile everytime you see them.. But let me tell you, EMO TIME IS OVER!! God is at work, and the rewards for those who wait upon Him, who serve Him and do not forsake Him just as He did not forsake us, is BIG!
Keep Him in mind, just as how I've been encouraged to do so as well. I've learnt alot from you at cell.. I'm really grateful for that.. So chilling, k! Let us remember what He has done for us in our lives and use that to go "ROCK THE WORLD"!! WOOHOO!!!
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although, do remember that He's there.. my own encouragement to you, "Everything has its time. Its plan. It's person to use to talk or show you. Its way of doing things.." The 'it' refers to the Spirit.. and His Time and Plan at the same time..
Your emo blogs show me life isn't smooth sailing even for those who can smile everytime you see them.. But let me tell you, EMO TIME IS OVER!! God is at work, and the rewards for those who wait upon Him, who serve Him and do not forsake Him just as He did not forsake us, is BIG!
Keep Him in mind, just as how I've been encouraged to do so as well. I've learnt alot from you at cell.. I'm really grateful for that.. So chilling, k! Let us remember what He has done for us in our lives and use that to go "ROCK THE WORLD"!! WOOHOO!!!
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